Dark Moon

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“For he will command his angels concerning you  to guard you in all your ways.” Psalm 91:11 ESV

For quite sometime, the inspiration and the will to write was taken away from me. I say taken away because I don’t write for fun, fame or money. I write when an inspiration hit me. Most times, it will wake me up in the middle of the night or the early hours of the morning. When that voice overwhelms me with thoughts, I had to write. That lull in writing, some writers call it writers block, I call it worlds block. I was lost. I wander around. I’m present physically, but I was not there. You know what I am saying?

I’ll be very honest with you here, I am trying so hard to stay away from religious post. You know why? After publishing my book, that feeling of being questioned about my knowledge and ability to write as much as to how much I know about religion follows me around. Have you ever had that feeling? It’s just there. This and other more personal – “I need to find myself stuff”, you know what I’m saying?

In this time of invisibility and wandering and questioning….He let me be.

I mean…He did give me time off. No more middle of the night or early morning wake up calls. Nothing! Am I okay with that? Of course I was.

But you know, He has other plans. I don’t know then….but I know now.

I found out that He will distance himself from us when need be. He will let us do things our way. See things our way. Find things our way.

I learned that true, He will distance Himself, but….He won’t abandon us. He’s there on the sidelines….from the people who crossed our path again, to the people that we just met for the first time and to everything else that happened either planned or by coincidence…

He knows. He sees. He let it be. All for a reason.

All this happened, so we can get to know ourselves better. So that we may truly grasp the true meaning of understanding. So that we may realize that forgiveness is not just about saying I’m sorry and I forgive you. So that we see what genuine humility looks like. So that we may experience what love (without being love back) really looks like….you know one that is pure, genuine, kind, understanding, humble and forgiving.

I learned that we can try to take away God from our life…but…

God won’t let you…He just won’t!

And like the great, forgiving and loving Father that He always is…..

He is ever ready to pick up the pieces, mold it back together….

This time….sturdier, stronger, wiser….much much better.

And then….

the New Moon arises.

“And now, dear lady, I am not writing you a new command but one we have had from the beginning. I ask that we love one another. And this is love: that we walk in obedience to his commands. As you have heard from the beginning, his command is that you walk in love.” 2 John 5:6

All good things,
Charina

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{when less is more}

Pondered Thoughts Proverbs6-20-22

A child who grew up knowing how it is to have nothing, they grew up appreciating everything…

As we passed by KFC, on our way home from town, I mentioned how having KFC was a treat when we were younger. Then, my husband mentioned how getting barbeque or a McDonalds cheeseburger was a treat for him back them days. Hearing my daughter say, that she thinks she is better off than most kids by not being a spoiled brat brought a smile to my lips. Yes, this is the kind of conversations we have as a family. Our daughter is aware of how our lives were as a kid. This awareness has helped her realize that she may not have everything that she  wanted, but still she is more fortunate than most kids of her age are, especially those living in a third world country.

We should teach our children the true meaning of having less and appreciating more…

Are we denying her a good life? Some might even say that we are not loving her enough by not lavishing her with all the material things and other luxuries that we as a parent should give our children. Can a good life be measured by how lavishly we live?

A life lived simply is a life full of possibilities…

A good life for us is having the ability to be able to eat out or go to the movie theater as a family once in a while. It means eating home cooked meals together and talking about how our day have been. It is watching movies together with a bag of popcorn. It is folding laundered clothes as a family. It is about making memories and going on trips together.

When is less, more?

My Family

I am the one sitting in Daddy’s lap.

Tomorrow, my Dad will be celebrating his 82nd birthday. As I look back into my childhood, I can’t help but be thankful for everything that we had. A life lived with so much less, yet is filled with so much more. All the things that no amount of money can buy. I know that my parents think that ours was a hard life. I know that they wished they could have given us more, not realizing that they gave us everything that we needed.

Grateful to the ones who give more than enough…

Daddy, as you celebrate your 82nd birthday, I want you to know..that you and Mang gave and showered us with everything. Void of material things but filled with so much love, care, support, understanding and lessons that helped us became the person that we are today. I want to thank you both so much for all that you are to all of us…Happy, happy birthday! I pray that the good Lord, will continue to bless you and Mang with good health, peace of mind, happiness, many more years of togetherness and all the wonderful blessings that you both rightfully deserve. We love you both so much!!!

Spoiling less is actually loving more…

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Now, I am thankful for a daughter who can see beyond the material things. I am thankful for her heart who can feel the love in not having everything.

When less is more, it is a blessing… 

All good things,
Charina